Posts Tagged ‘schedules’

Staying on Track

In the past few weeks, I’ve concentrated on my new job and maintaining relationships. I’ve found that I am not all that happy, and I believe I’m going through a bout of depression. There are various reasons, but I am looking into therapy and possibly getting on medication to help. It’s becoming increasingly hard to concentrate on positivity in my life, and I’d like to get a sense of security.

While medication might seem like I’m giving up to some, please know that medication helps and works in many cases. A few years back, I was on prozac and I was able to focus more on positive change in my life than negative habits. After six months, I stopped taking the¬†prescription and I was able to live a happy life.

I am not going to force the doctor into medication, but I will definitely let him know that I am open to taking something and see what he or she has to offer. I hope to maintain the blog more often since I did it more for me than anyone else, though I hope it’s helped someone out there.

I am working towards getting my life settled in so many areas: mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual. It will take time, patience, and resolve. Thanks for anyone reading.



Sorry for the delay on new posts, folks! I appreciate everyone tuning in for more, but I’ve been a tad busy the past week or so. I promise to have more posted in the upcoming weeks.

PS- I started a new job today, hence the busy-ness.

Getting It Out

Yesterday, I lost my driver’s license. For many, this is a simple fix: go to the local tag agency or DMV and replace your license. I unfortunately had an out-of-state driver’s license. Plus, I don’t own a car, but I was planning on buying one very soon. I cannot be insured without a driver’s license. I would have to do the driving test in the state of Ohio if I cannot procure my old license to prove it was still within time before renewal. Basically, the point is that so many things tied into this one tiny piece of plastic, and I lost it. ‘Tis the way of life, yes? Sometimes.

Of course, in my life, I’ve been feeling quite dependent upon others because I do not own a car. I have to ask for rides, depend on a bus system that rides by once an hour, and I have to schedule dates, appointments, and whatnot around the bus schedule. And I lost my damn license. I busted out crying at my boyfriend’s house because I felt like a complete failure: another stupid accident that happened because of me. A lost series of lists with me as the person incapable of being responsible enough without something always happening.

The thing of the matter is that I am always changing to find better ways to keep things from happening to me. They still manage to happen. It becomes annoying, depressing, and I’m utterly tired from trying so hard to prove to others and myself how responsible I am. I’m damn responsible. Sure, other people have it more together: their lists, their way of doing things, their enhanced ability to put all the puzzles pieces together and foresee what may happen throughout the day.

I, unfortunately, am not that person: I forget the one thing at the grocery store I needed most; I forget birthday cards sitting on my table near the door while heading out to the birthday party (without a car, I rely on someone else to take me back home to fetch the card so I’m not a dick for forgetting); I don’t always remember date times or appointments; the list goes on and on. I don’t do anything of these things on purpose. Even when I have a system, it seems to not work for me. I use my phone now to make reminders or post things on my calendar. It updates me at certain intervals of time to remind me of said event. Now, my phone is acting up and I’m forgetting all sorts of things.

So, what is the point of my entire various rants? Sometimes, you have to get it out. Write a blog, call a friend, meet up with a family member, even chat with someone online. Get it out of you because it’ll boil up over the edges and you’ll eventually spill it out on them, and they don’t deserve it. At the same time, you cannot manage in life if you’re always full of emotion. You’ll make wrong decisions, forget things, so forth and so on. Plus, it’s nice to have someone else to see a different perspective on the situation.

Fight Procrastination: Push!

May 15, 2011 3 comments

I find myself putting things off until the last minute. For some, they call it laziness. For others, it’s procrastination. Since I’m a pretty active person, I believe I simply procrastinate because I’d rather do something more “interesting.” I’ve even made up excuses in the past to keep from doing my work. This isn’t a healthy way of living. Instead, I’m pushing away opportunities for myself to grow and become a better person. A lot of the time, if I simply pushed or willed myself to get it over with, I was a lot happier and it wasn’t as big of a struggle as I assumed.

Usually, I convince myself there’s too much to do but so little time to do it. So, I do what I can for 10 minutes. I mentioned this in another blog Stay Clean! It’s a great way to show progress in such a small amount of time.

Sometimes, I tell myself I don’t have the mental energy to complete my tasks and I’d rather sit and watch television or play a video game. When I get to feeling this way, I will force myself into my chores or duties instead. I hold my pleasures for ransom until I’m finished with my goal. Then, I can do whatever I’d like. If I have a lot to do, and I actually need a break, I’ll set a time to do a small bit of fun and return to my chores after my set time.

At times, I even bribe myself into doing chores. “I will give myself a chocolate for each task I finish” or something alone those lines. Or, I do the exact opposite: “For every task I do not finish tonight, I will donate $5 to charity.” I lose out on money I really cannot live without, yet I’ve supported a good cause.

What do you do to fight procrastination?

Stay Clean!

May 9, 2011 2 comments

Depression can take hold of you at any moment, and it will infect your mind with the tiniest thing to keep you down. For example, you’re feeling down, already hating on yourself, and you realize the dishes aren’t washed. Your mind, thanks to depression, may use it against you to keep your spirits down. In essence, you feel bad because you feel bad, and this has kept you from doing the dishes. A constant vicious cycle which will cripple you and ruin your day.

Even I have problems staying on top of all the cleaning, and I’m unemployed! Now, instead of getting down on myself, I’ll simply create a schedule and a list of chores to be done, and I’ll finish them one by one.

I like to focus on one chore at a time. Sometimes, I’ll make a game of it and give myself five minute to ten minutes to see how much I can get done. For that entire time, I do not stop and I maintain concentration on this one task. If I’m not finished within the time frame, I will have at least put a dent in it. If I choose to, I will give myself a smaller amount of time to complete the chore and mark it off my list. Otherwise, I can move on to another task and come back to the incomplete chore later.

Also, I love not rushing around during the day: showering and getting dress to leave for work somewhere, only to sit in a stuffy cubicle somewhere alone for eight hours. Still, I should shower. I know staying clean and keeping up on my personal hygiene will make me feel better. Refreshed, revitalized, rejuvenated, relaxed… All the wonderful R’s in the world used in shampoo commercials. Plus, your friends and family will appreciate it.

My point in all this? Stay clean! It helps make you love your environment and your body, which should be treated as a temple. It’s the only one you’ll get and you should take care of it.

To Sleep, Perchance to Dream

For some people, they find sleep overrated. A simple Google search on quotes about sleeping will give you results where most writers find sleeping a waste of time. In reality, sleep is crucial in your everyday journey. Last night, I decided to set up a sleep schedule, yes a sleep schedule, to make sure I go to bed and wake up on time. I might be unemployed but I’m not dead. It doesn’t excuse my basic nature, as a creative and functioning member of society, to need a schedule.

The sleep schedule lets me know when to wind down at night and prepare for eight hours of sleeping, at the least, and it lets me know when to wake up. In between those times, I am allowed to rest, dream, and replenish my energy. These three key elements are important for keeping your body healthy and your emotions level:

  • Dreams are vital for sleeping because it’s the best way your body can process issues and relieve itself of stress.
  • If you get enough sleep, your body will produce enough hormones to keep your appetite under control so you don’t overeat throughout the day.
  • Your body produces a compound known as adenosine which accumulates in our blood while we’re awake and eventually triggers drowsiness. It is only until we’ve fallen asleep that our body can break down this chemical.

In all honesty, the first step you must take in order to get your life back on track and to maintain your health is creating a sleep schedule and adhering to it. Now, things come up and schedules have to be manipulated for the greater good, but strive to get in eight hours if possible. The power of the nap is also a wonderful mini-vacation throughout the day. Use sleep as one of your weapons and it will keep you strong for the long haul.